Wednesday, February 18, 2009

College Lifee

Thinking of my past few months in college as a freshman and compare that to the summer before my college years started, I'm definitely a different person. Who knew a person could change so much and endure so much in such a short period of time...

Im not a completely different person that I changed dramatically but I have learned alot about myself and who I am. My perspective of things have really been challenged and how I look at life in a certain light. I realized how important people are in my life. Being apart from my loved ones have only strengthened my relationship with them. Which is amazing! College has also caused me to challenge myself with my comfort zones. Im naturally a passive and quiet person with extrovert tendencies. And my time here at Cal State Ive been moving up levels with my comfort zone and has enabled me to be much more confident and stronger.

One of the things that Im hoping will expand my comfort zone is the upcoming event of a date auction. A club here at CSUSB is taking part in a date auction as a fundraiser for Vietnamese families/kids. My friend asked me to be a part of the auction and I said yes thinking that he wouldnt really need my help. [ Man was I wrong. ] If you asked anyone who has known me for years they could probably say I wouldnt imagine Lindsey to be part of this...Hahaa.
So I think Im partly doing this for myself. Not for a random date with a complete stranger but just to show to myself that I am able to push my own limits without having someone to do it for me. Whatever the outcome Im going in with a smile and out with a bigger smile knowing I initiated this "opportunity".

Wish me luck!

Monday, February 9, 2009

Missing You

Why don't you talk to me?
You talk to him but not me...why is that?!
[& everytime I hear that song I want to cry,
adding another tear in heaven]
I could really use some advice here.
I know that I asked a favor but
couldn't I get some direction.
Or even reassurance at least.

Why don't you talk to me?
My feelings are torn. Its too hard to handle alone.
I'm questioning whether its worth every ache,
tear, and late night.
How will I ever know? How am I to cope?
What if another happens, then what?!

Why don't you talk to me?
Please come to the rescue.
&Tell me what to do, what to say.
Possibly he is the only one that can pick me up.



Im definitely missing you. And lately its only been about you running through my mind. With every message, call, text, and IM it warms my heart. In all honesty I push you away when I know that all I want is you. You're right..I need you just as much as you need me.

Monday, February 2, 2009

My hometown



My hometown of Escondido, California is a pretty simple town. Small to those who have lived there their whole lives. I have lived there for majority of my life and it pretty much is a great place to be. The real essence of this small town is finding the right places to go. It definitely has an old school feel in downtown Escondido. However it also has its modern appeals as well. New constructions are being built with each month passing by. Homes are in every direction. Some areas are apartments, others are new developments, and of course the ghettos are present there. Architecture of homes are different with every street you drive through. Night life is usually downtown especially on Grand Ave. The theatre, the Center of the Arts, Cruising Grand, and local shops are the attractions. Local shops are the best. The great thing about the location is that its right smack dab in the middle of everything. Snow is just a ways away,and the beaches are 15-20 minutes max. Different cultures come together and its the most diverse city to come through. If you ever take a road trip Escondido would definitely be worth the detour.