A universal longing..<33

I havent had that many relationships, but lots of friendships that could last me a lifetime of happiness.
After experiencing 4 years of high school and looking back on it compared to now in college, Ive come to realize something even more...
Life is surrounded and consumed by love and relationships.

I got into a real conversation about this topic with a friend of mine and we talked about the issue of people settling for someone who isnt "right" for the lack of a better word, and how love has been tainted. You know?!

Love is a universal longing and wish. Everyone craves for the fabulous relationship to share with someone and have someone know you inside and out.
So many people are concerned with having someone and wanting someone there for them. Experiencing the feeling of loneliness and they are scared that they wont or cant find someone. The needy and loneliness consume people sometimes causing them to think that they need someone to fill that empty space in their heart however everyone is lonely and want someone special in their life..to have someone there with you on an intimate emotional level. Everyone wants that..of course!

Except, to me, I believe settling for someone who happens to be there in your life and who isnt right for you is not the best way to go about it. I know alot of people go down the wrong road because of love and relationships. And for what? Lives have been taken, destroyed, changed forever, and tainted by love. Dealing with loneliness or problems doesnt mean go get drunk, get high, get faded, or have one night stands... The feeling of loneliness can be dealt with in more healthier ways like making friendships, being the family, and keeping yourself busy. The simplicity and advantages of true friendships are taken for granted. Jumping into a relationship brings nothing but drama and more hurt. How many people have been hurt for no reason because of rash decisions. A relationship isnt just a boy and girl getting together but it concerns everyone around you. It affects the people around you and its sharing your life with another person and letting another person into your life on a different level.

I dont believe you have to have someone in your life to be happy or to fill that "empty" space in your heart. When you allow yourself to be happy and let things come your way without force, that right person for you at that time in your life will come your way. Be patient. Trust me! Settling wont do any good. I believe things happen for a reason. Continue to do what you have to do like school, spending time with family and friends, and living/enjoying life and the relationship will eventually present itself. Life can be surprising..Hahaa.
Maybe if it hasnt happened for you yet then its probably not supposed to happen quite yet. It doesnt mean that it never will or that theres something wrong or that the last relationship was the best you could do. NO! Thats not the right mentality. I believe we're all meant to have someone. Does it really matter when we find that person? Theres nothing wrong with being single...Come on now. The ones that are really concerned with "love" and "relationships" are in high school and college students. What? We're only 16-19 years old and thats the main concern?! Really? Being single can be very enpowering! I know that since Ive been single I have gained a different kind of confidence, understanding of myself and others, options are kept open and are revealed, and an independence.

LOVE>The one thing in everyones lives that everyone wants and prays for yet it causes heartache and pain. But I think thats what comes with something so great as love, heartache. Part of being in love and having a real relationship is getting hurt. Love has been turned into something its not, well at least being represented in a way that taints the real meaning..
Im no expert dont get me wrong, Im only 19 but dont let my age underestimate my understanding of my feelings and those of others. All Im saying is that Love is universal and shouldnt be taken for granted or taken advantage of.

My passion &escape

SWIMMING!

The sport of swimming has been a part of my life since I was 3 years old. And I can tell you there is NOTHING BUT BENEFITS from swimming. There absolutely no disadvantages. It is a low-impact exercise made for almost anyone – pregnant women, people with disabilities, those recovering from injury, the elderly, and those with weight limitations. They are different advantages to having swimming as a part of your physical activity. Swimming helps you in different aspects of your life physically, mentally, and your overall well being.

Regular Swimming does exercise the entire body. Your cardiovascular endurance, muscular strength endurance, flexibility, coordination, agility and balance are all strengthened. Without overworking the heart, it improves the body’s use of oxygen and increases lung function. Stimulates circulation, is fantastic for toning the upper arms, shoulders and legs, lowers blood pressure, and risk of injury. Another plus to swimming is that you don’t feel the sticky sweat and don’t get hot because your body is surrounded in cool water. You burn serious calories while swimming. Have you heard of the ridiculous diet of Olympic swimmer Michael Phelps because of how much he burns from swimming? Crazy right!?

I know while I swim laps I constantly think about anything and everything so it relaxes me and I focus on my stroke. This form of meditation can help you gain a feeling of well-being, and understanding of your surroundings. Exercise in water safely enables and assists you in the recovery of injuries, surgeries and illnesses and helps combat the aging process. It reduces stress levels and soothes the mind and body. Water supports and massages the body as you exercise. The cooling and massaging effects of exercising in the water make it a great place to workout without feeling tired. You develop a positive mental attitude, high self-esteem, and increased energy levels.

Plus it gives us an excuse to go bathing suit shopping! I know that’s one of my favorite parts of swimming, the bathing suits. Swimming and aquatic exercises allow you to meet new people, challenge or push each other and share the rewards of doing a swim workout together.
Why wouldn’t you want a toned body, overall well being, and a reduced stressed life?! We can all do better with less stress in our lives. It’s a fun activity and a great way to stay healthy. Not to mention swimming is a great skill to learn and maybe could save your life one day, or someone else’s. As I said theres only great lifelong benefits for you so I strongly encourage you start swimming and have fun!

College Lifee

Thinking of my past few months in college as a freshman and compare that to the summer before my college years started, I'm definitely a different person. Who knew a person could change so much and endure so much in such a short period of time...

Im not a completely different person that I changed dramatically but I have learned alot about myself and who I am. My perspective of things have really been challenged and how I look at life in a certain light. I realized how important people are in my life. Being apart from my loved ones have only strengthened my relationship with them. Which is amazing! College has also caused me to challenge myself with my comfort zones. Im naturally a passive and quiet person with extrovert tendencies. And my time here at Cal State Ive been moving up levels with my comfort zone and has enabled me to be much more confident and stronger.

One of the things that Im hoping will expand my comfort zone is the upcoming event of a date auction. A club here at CSUSB is taking part in a date auction as a fundraiser for Vietnamese families/kids. My friend asked me to be a part of the auction and I said yes thinking that he wouldnt really need my help. [ Man was I wrong. ] If you asked anyone who has known me for years they could probably say I wouldnt imagine Lindsey to be part of this...Hahaa.
So I think Im partly doing this for myself. Not for a random date with a complete stranger but just to show to myself that I am able to push my own limits without having someone to do it for me. Whatever the outcome Im going in with a smile and out with a bigger smile knowing I initiated this "opportunity".

Wish me luck!

Missing You

Why don't you talk to me?
You talk to him but not me...why is that?!
[& everytime I hear that song I want to cry,
adding another tear in heaven]
I could really use some advice here.
I know that I asked a favor but
couldn't I get some direction.
Or even reassurance at least.

Why don't you talk to me?
My feelings are torn. Its too hard to handle alone.
I'm questioning whether its worth every ache,
tear, and late night.
How will I ever know? How am I to cope?
What if another happens, then what?!

Why don't you talk to me?
Please come to the rescue.
&Tell me what to do, what to say.
Possibly he is the only one that can pick me up.



Im definitely missing you. And lately its only been about you running through my mind. With every message, call, text, and IM it warms my heart. In all honesty I push you away when I know that all I want is you. You're right..I need you just as much as you need me.

My hometown

My hometown of Escondido, California is a pretty simple town. Small to those who have lived there their whole lives. I have lived there for majority of my life and it pretty much is a great place to be. The real essence of this small town is finding the right places to go. It definitely has an old school feel in downtown Escondido. However it also has its modern appeals as well. New constructions are being built with each month passing by. Homes are in every direction. Some areas are apartments, others are new developments, and of course the ghettos are present there. Architecture of homes are different with every street you drive through. Night life is usually downtown especially on Grand Ave. The theatre, the Center of the Arts, Cruising Grand, and local shops are the attractions. Local shops are the best. The great thing about the location is that its right smack dab in the middle of everything. Snow is just a ways away,and the beaches are 15-20 minutes max. Different cultures come together and its the most diverse city to come through. If you ever take a road trip Escondido would definitely be worth the detour.

Where I'm From

I am from drive-in movies, karaoke nights,
and bike rides.
I am the words written in multiple journals.
I am from arts and crafts
and mickey mouse pancakes.

I'm from teenage ninja turtles and
doug morning cartoons.
From everyday plaid uniform, weekend
prayer services and listening to the Word
on Sunday evenings.

I am from chlorine,
from Take your mark! and stroke!
Twisted fishing line, strobe lights and rollerskates.
I'm from borrowed shoes and strikes.
From weekly farmer markets and
park adventures.

I'm from different addresses
and from a stamped passport.
From Abba and Kenny G.
From pancit, lumpia, and rice with every meal.
I am from my daddy's common sense
and looks, and my mommy's big heart and dedication.
I'm from these values and traditions.
I am the memories I hold dear.